Nov

Up and Down..

For the count that is. Have I mentioned how much the night shift and I do not get along? (You’re probably getting sick and ‘tired’ of hearing it from me)

Here’s my problem. I’m a light sleeper. So light of a sleeper that the wind outside wakes me- not a lie. So ‘forcing’ myself or convincing myself to sleep is just impossible.

I’m all out of sorts.

My body is rejecting my F’d up circadian clock right now. It doesn’t know if it’s coming or going. Day or night? Stay awake.. or sleep?

When I want or need to sleep.. I’m wide fricken awake!. When I want or need to stay awake.. I’m peeling my eyelids open just to focus! I have to convince my synapses they need to fire.

My mind’s not right. My brain is hazy. And my attitude has gone down the toilet. My poor wife has suffered the most. She gets to listen to me whine.. and she gets the whipping end of my short-fuse. I seem to be snapping and ‘biting’ at all the small things – and I KNOW I’m doing it. She’s so good to me, tolerating me and my down-right miserable-ness. These are one of the million times I am truly lucky to be her husband. She makes me a better man by simply being her – because no one else would tolerate me and my bitterness. I love you angel.

Grr.

I hate this.

I hate the ‘me’ I see.

Tags: me, night shift, nurse

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frogeyes10

You ARE the light of my life and I know you would do the same for me! I love you baby..xoxo

Sean Dent

XOXO

Wanderer

Eye shades, ear plugs, chemical sedative of choice, rinse and repeat. Has worked for me for about 3 months. Prior to that I had no issues, but something about this summer kept me awake. Now that Fall is back I have no issues, except waking up confused on my day off, but that is a whole other ball game.

Sean Dent

I've tried all the above and more - trust me. The nigh shift is not what it used to be for me. I just can't do this the way I used to. I'm just not made for it.

pinkyrn

Night shift sucks. How long do you have to do it? How long have you done it? I used to do three night shifts of 12 hour duration. Living hell but the money was good and I had a kid in college. The older I get the harder it is to do 12 hours and night shifts. I avoid them like the plague. Although the plague is easier to avoid than night shift if you are a nurse.