This knee injury is testing my mental toughness. As a working adult we always dream about having an extended amount of time off.
I used to think, “Are you kidding… that would be heaven”. To not have to worry about getting up and going to work?!! Isn’t that what we all want?
I remember being jealous of friends and family who had reached retirement. “OH man! You are SO lucky” is what I would tell them.
Only for them to tell me later, how time off is not all it’s cracked up to be.
Well I’m starting to get it now.
I’m off on an extended leave. I’ve been home from vacation and I’ve been ready to go back to work, but my body had other plans. I seem to have peaks and valleys to my day. I feel great and my knee is almost able to straighten. I’m able to walk with almost no pain and I can go up and down steps with minimal limp.
Then there are other times where my knee paralyzes me. I sit up, pivot or stand a certain way and the pain is so severe it’s as if I stepped on a live wire or someone snuck up from behind me and “TAZED” me [don’t taze me bro..]
It’s frustrating when getting in the car to run some errands completely exhausts me with a ridiculous amount of pain.
Here’s the kick in the teeth…
I can’t drive myself anywhere because I can’t use my driving leg (injured my right knee). I’m unable to lock out my knee so driving would be beyond dangerous. So I’m depending on my wife to chauffeur me any and everywhere [WHICH SUCKS]. I cannot even describe how much that angers me. My poor wife is being put through the ringer.
So, today started out on a high note.. but then ended pretty low. Then I beat myself up for not being “up” [even after this post].
After I paused to enjoy the sunshine (see included pic) I remembered that my engine can’t be in 5th gear all the time, nor can my life. And ironically I could hear Lewis Howes voice in my head (sorry Lewis):
What I’m talking about today is the importance of living fully in whatever season of life you are currently in.
I learned from my football days that you can’t go all out all the time.
There’s a time to prepare, time to train, time to perform, and time to recover.
Live in the Season of Your Life
The School of Greatness Podcast was one of the first Podcasts I subscribed to when I dived into the world of Podcasting. I love the message he delivers and the way he delivers it. Go check out any and everything Lewis produces, you won’t be disappointed.
I’m like a caged animal. My norm is starting my day before sunrise.. and arriving home after dark. A full day of work, then coaching (or training). I still don’t sit well [it’s why I chose my current profession].
I’m ready to get better. My surgery is scheduled for next week, it can’t come quick enough. I knew this knee injury would challenge me physically, but never expected my emotions to be tested as much as they have.
In the meantime, I’m going to live fully during this season of my life.